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[Monday, February 8th, 2010
@ 1:32am] |
just so we're clear, this week is going to suck.
biochem exam 9:10 on thursday.
micro lab notebook due at 12:40 on thursday.
eukaryotic cell biology exam at 4:20 on thursday.
2 page book review of a book i'm not going to have time to read for my IAH class due 10:20 on friday
fuck. my. life.
hopefully i'll get my vet school letter this week. that would be the fucking epitome of awesome.
p.s.
a lyric from a carrie underwood song, called "what can i say", that i feel like legit applies to my life.
"and i'm not sorry that it's over
but for the way we let it end.
i couldn't find the words to say"
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| kitttennnnnnns! |
[Friday, February 5th, 2010
@ 2:40am] |
so i am now an official volunteer for the capital area humane society of lansing. first day on the job, i get a mother cat and her 4 kittens who are approximately 5 weeks old, give or take a few days.
they are adorable and i love them. tucker is none too pleased with the situation but whatevs. he's technically not allowed to interact with them anyways...so they're just going to stay in my closet for the time being. probably i'll let them out later, but we'll have to see. i have a feeling momma cat isn't gonna be too happy having tucker harassing her babies. either way, we're keeping them until at least february 24th. holla.
i turned 20 this week. it's so weird thinking that i'm in my 20's. i feel so...old. at the same time, i am SUPER excited to have started my countdown to 21. woooooo :D
it's now officially almost "mid-february" which means that my vet school letter could, quite literally, be coming any day now. i'm not going to lie, i'm freaking out. a LOT. every day i have a mini-panic attack when i go to the mailbox. awesome.
i have a biochem exam and a eukaryotic cell biology exam next thursday, along with a microbiology lab notebook check. i feel SO unprepared for everything...hopefully this weekend will be super productive...although that is doubtful since i'm going home, there's a superbowl party on sunday, and i have kittens...
single awareness day is coming up. super excited for the 20th year in a row i have not had a valentine on single awareness day. fabulous. at least this time danielle is in the same boat.
off to bed. goodnight, livejournal.
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[Tuesday, February 2nd, 2010
@ 1:35am] |
so i just had a conversation with elton, re: his new year's party and why i wasn't invited.
can i just say i'm super glad that i'm not friends with most of the people i was friends with in high school anymore? because i am.
SO GLAD i don't have to see him, nick or lauren on a daily basis. whoever said high school was the best time of your life was lying.
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[Tuesday, February 2nd, 2010
@ 12:26am] |
83 birthday nbotifications.
far more than last year. yayy i win.
ps..
iam intoxicated right now. danielle is judging me, i think. at least she woulc be if i told her. but i haven't. oh well. i'm sick of being judged, and it's myb irthday...im allowed to have fun :D
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[Monday, February 1st, 2010
@ 12:20am] |
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three birthday shots in fifteen minutes on a sunday night when i have a 9:10 tomorrow morning = another college milestone accomplished =]
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[Sunday, January 31st, 2010
@ 8:57pm] |
last night was a quality birthday celebration =]
not a lot of people ended up coming, but i had tons of fun with andy, kait, devan and kim. lots of jello shots, quelf and vodka were involved, and a good time was had by all =] rounding out the night with the lizzie mcguire movie = A+ choice, even though i fell asleep for a good portion of the middle of the movie.
today was the musical 101 dalmatians, and then out to dinner with kim & her family.
connexions comedy club on friday night with kim was fabulous...i love comedy clubs. i dunno why i don't go more often. plussss since it was within a week of my birthday, i got in free and got free drinks! wooo, too bad i'm not 21 =[
now i'm sitting on the couch watching the grammy's with tucker and about to switch over to desperate housewives. i have yet to do anything productive for school this weekend, other than studying for biochem a litle bit.
overall it was a FABULOUS last weekend as a teenager and i had a great time =]
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[Saturday, January 30th, 2010
@ 3:39pm] |
asdlfhasdfkhads.
lotttttttsssssssssss of people are getting acceptance letters to vet school now...
i'm fairly sure they're all "auto-admits"...people with extremely high GPAs & GRE scores. which i wasn't really expecting to qualify as...but still. it would be really nice to get in soon, because with each person i hear of who gets in, i realize that is one less available spot that i could possibly get.
funny thing is that i don't ACTUALLY know any of these people...there's just a message board online and people are posting that they got acceptances. but, most of them are out of state anyways, so i guess they're really not my competition. still...freaking the eff out.
acceptance letter on my birthday would be the EPITOME of awesome...just sayin.
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[Thursday, January 28th, 2010
@ 2:10am] |
i have now officially gotten drunk (or at least significantly buzzed) on a weeknight when i have class at 9:10 tomorrow morning.
one more thing to check off my college/undergrad "to do before i graduate" list ;)
i made jello shots tonight just for fun because i wanted to see how they'd turn out before i make them for my party on saturday, and they were fabulous. perhaps a wee bit too strong, but still good. i was buzzed after like, two. i went on to have three more, lol. danielle had some too, which i was surprised by, but said she didn't feel anything. i'm assuming she just doesn't realize what being buzzed feels like, because there's no way I was buzzed after two and she felt nothing.
anywho.
i should go to bed...class ALL DAY tomorrow =[
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| i hate being a girl |
[Wednesday, January 27th, 2010
@ 1:13pm] |
ughhhhh.
i feel like shit.
i felt like shit last night.
i never ever feel like shit during my period. this is not ok. i am fucking MISERABLE. this had better not be a recurring thing because i will NOT be happy with my body.
i wish i could trade my ovaries and vagina in for a penis.
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| can't sleep so i'll LJ |
[Monday, January 25th, 2010
@ 4:22am] |
i've been so depressed lately. i'm not really sure why...maybe because i haven't felt like going out much, but haven't had homework to do or anything to keep me busy, because it's the beginning of the year. so mostly i've just been sitting around like a bump on a log, watching danielle hang out with joe 24/7. it's actually incredibly obnoxious.
also i've realized lately how fucking superficial danielle is. as in she thinks nobody is as attractive as her and that she's some sort of supermodel, just because she has more than one boy pining for her attention. it's really getting on my nerves. maybe it's just because i'm single. probably. either way i hate it.
vet school letters will apparently arrive mid-february to mid march. i don't really have too much stock in that though...i've heard so many different things from so many different people about what's going on. ughhh.
birthday party next weekend should be fun, as long as people show up. i hate it when people RSVP as attending to an event, and then don't show. especially because i'm supplying the booze and if i end up buying way too much because people don't show i'm going to be pissed. i mean, yeah, i can use it on a different day and it certainly won't go to waste, but still.
either way i'm excited for my birthday and for kim to come up for the weekend.
ummm...
planned out my schedule for my 'plan B' today...as in i picked all my classes i'll have to take next year. really really hoping i won't have to utilize this tool but at least i have a plan, if i do. i also loosely looked at which vet schools i'm going to apply to if i have to reapply. i think i've pretty much settled on MSU (duh), ohio state, missouri, wisconsin, kansas and potentially upenn. all of these schools have similar pre-req requirements to MSU, so i'll just have to take a statistics class (over the summer in farmington, like i did for orgo) and then also COM 100, which should NOT be hard at all. i'll probably take COM over the summer too, just to get it done. i can take it online so that should be good. additionally, those schools all accept a decent number of out of state students, so my chances are decent at getting in and it's not a complete waste of money. finally, wisconsin has an AMAZING oncology program (the chemo treatment fozzie is on is called the madison-wisconsin protocol for a reason...), AND their out of state tuition is only about a thousand dollars more than MSU's instate tuition. ohio state is close to home, and while the out of state tuition is RIDICULOUS, after the first year you can easily apply for in-state residency/tuition. so, yeah.
i really really would like to go to st. louis over spring break to see dawn. if i do end up going, i probably will take the megabus. even though i'll have to take the bus to chicago, and then one from chicago to st. louis, i can get a round trip ticket for between $40-70. whichs is not bad, at all.
i decided not to go to the PVMA symposium because i want to be able to go to st. louis, and because if i'm in vet school, that would basically be a waste of $200. i hope this decision doesn't backfire on me, because i'm already second-guessing my decision not to go.
i wish it were warmer outside.
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[Tuesday, January 19th, 2010
@ 11:13pm] |
fuck scott brown.
ted kennedy is rolling over in his grave right now...as dr. byron put it, he's spinning like he's on a rotisserie.
however, all is not lost. i have faith president obama will find a way to pass this healthcare reform if it's the last thing he does.
[EDIT]
i just realized scott brown's daughter, ayla, was in the top 16 on american idol season five. i actually LIKED her. i VOTED for her.
i feel like i have betrayed myself.
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| a non-vet-school-related summary of my life |
[Friday, January 15th, 2010
@ 10:01pm] |
well.
the first week of classes is over...and i've already skipped a class. oops. biochemistry. but, seeing as how the notes were about entropy and such, which we learned in regular chem, ap chem, cem 141 AND orgo...i think it was ok to miss.
i think eukaryotic is going to be a BITCH. IAH should be easy...it just sucks because there's not really a grading scale...so i have no idea what my grade is going to be. and i HATE classes like that, a lot.
biochem, i'm not sure yet. i suppose we'll see after the first test, right?
micro lab does NOT seem that bad. and, it's only two hours rather than the three i thought. so that's good. plus, nikki is in my section along with her friend melissa. so it should be a good time.
haven't had physics lab yet...yay for that =]
i hate having my IAH recitation all the freaking way at case, though. i hate south complex. dunno why anyone would want to live there, ever. it's way out in the freaking middle of nowhere. the only thing it's ANYWHERE close to is the stadium and all of the athlete areas, so i guess if you're an athlete, it'd be a good place to go. otherwise? no way. the bus system is HORRIBLE and unreliable and once you're on a bus, it takes FOREVER to get back to the cata. no thank you.
i've officially worked out three days in a row. i'm legitimately dedicated to working out this semester, on a regular basis, with the wii. danielle bought EA sports active and it's INTENSE. way more intense than the wii fit. i'm doing the "30 day fitness challenge" on 'medium' intensity...and damn. i've been sweating my ass off. my thighs are sooooo sore from all the squats and lunges, and that damn inline skating game that makes you crouch and then jump up again. however, hopefully it will be worth it. especially now that i'm making a concious effort to eat better, since we have a bridge card and i can afford to buy things like fresh fruit and vegetables, etc.
i'm getting a littttle perturbed with danielle and her seeming inability to do anything involving contacting people about problems in the apartment. ie, the internet wasn't (and still isn't...) working when we came back up from break. it's ok though, because we're connecting to an unsecured wireless network in the apartment complex in the meantime. but all week danielle has been bugging me to call comcast and tell them to come fix it. so i finally confronted her and told her if she wanted me to call so bad, SHE could do it. i've been extremely busy this week trying to keep up with everything. she told me she didn't know what was wrong, made excuses, blah blah blah. well guess what? i don't know what's wrong either, i just know it's not working. and i'm sick of always having to be the one to do EVERYTHING for the apartment. i made all the arrangements in the beginning with the leasing office, I'M the one who had to call over the summer and setup a time so HER PARENTS could do a walk-through of the apartment, I'M the one who had to call and get the utilities transferred into our name, I'M the one who had to call comcast and setup the cable, I'M the one who always has to be the 'adult' and take care of hte apartment responsibilities and i'm sick of it. especially when danielle then bitches to me about how stuff isn't getting done. well guess what, you can do it yourself, don't rely on me for everything. i don't mind doing most of it but when you start complaining to me about how it's not done fast enough for your liking, then yeah, i'll start getting upset.
/rant.
i should go read for eukaryotic now.
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[Friday, January 15th, 2010
@ 3:52pm] |
i am getting SO ANXIOUS about vet school.
on the forums i read online, allllll of the other schools are starting to contact/interview people, and letting them know they were accepted. but no. michigan waits until freaking the very last minute to do ANYTHING. they JUST finished sending out supplementals LAST WEEK. a MONTH after they said they'd have them all done.
meaning i probably won't know anything til MARCH.
ay carumba. i seriously don't know how i'm going to do it. there are some days i don't think about it at all, and some days where i literally sit around ALL DAY and all i can do is think about it and how anxious i am to just KNOW already. gasldkfahlskdfhasdfk.
everyone around me is probably sick of hearing about it by now...blah. sorry to y'all.
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| new semester |
[Wednesday, January 13th, 2010
@ 1:13am] |
blech.
this semester is going to be so hardcore academically. i'm not sure i'm up for it, but i guess i have no choice.
eukaryotic cell biology is going to kick my ass. biochemistry probably will too. they're both 4 credit classes, ew.
i'm loving not having wednesday classes though. it's awesome because it gives me a chance to sleep in and catch up on all of my reading.
having 9:10 class on M/Tu/Th/F really really blows, though. but at least it gets me out of bed early, i guess?
hmmmm
i'm doing pretty well on my new year's resolutions so far, so that's good. seriously though my only real resolution is vet school. so...yeah.
p.s. i just did a friends cut. if you're still there, congrats...i still like you/talk to you on a regular basis/am interested in your life. it's not like it really matters though because i don't usually friends-lock my posts.
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| bad decisions |
[Sunday, January 10th, 2010
@ 5:59pm] |
so.
spent the night with dawn, josh and suzy last night...it was a good time. i'm really gonna miss dawn when she's in st. louis. but, i guess the new plan is maybe to come visit her for spring break? sooo yeah. i'm gonna look into that.
in other news, i drank WAY more than i should have last night and paid for it this morning. i had 3 bottles of wine (boones farm lol) in about that many hours. yeah. judging by the blood alcohol calculator i used online this morning because i was curious, i was intoxicated to the level of approximately .20. sooo yeah. oh well it was fun =] and my hangover consisted of being extremely thirsty, nauseous, and having a small headache. soooo it definitely could have been worse.
i made so many bad decisions last night...from updating my facebook status to texting josh (who was about 20 feet away from me at the time) instructing him to "put your penis in my vagina". oooh boy, lol. oh well, as i said it was all very fun and probably a fitting last time hanging out with dawn.
now i'm back at state, and feel like crap and do not want to unpack and such. but i really should. blahhh.
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[Wednesday, January 6th, 2010
@ 11:14pm] |
applying for internships blows. most of them are unpaid and i really would rather just stay at GAH all summer. unfortunately that won't get me into vet school. and since i don't have an acceptance yet i need to think about how i could improve my vet school application. blah. so obnoxious.
this part of break is ridiculously boring. everyone's gone, i'm no longer working, and i now have no car for the next few days because one of my dad's friends is working on fixing everything that's wrong with it. boooo. can you say boring?
can't wait for this weekend with dawn though. woooo, alcohollll.
ummmm what else. i'm only updating because i'm super bored.
scared for my classes this semester. but what else is new. i'm determined to do well. that probably means spending less time at the apartment with danielle/joe and more time at the library/panera/etc, but whateves. i WILL get at least a 3.7 this semester no matter what.
ummm yeah. i believe that is it.
ps i hate buying textbooks. such a waste of $$.
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| blahhhhhh |
[Monday, January 4th, 2010
@ 10:01pm] |
worked a 12.5 hour shift today...my last one until the summer, likely. and my last shift ever with dawn, definitely. booo =[
dawn put in her two weeks notice today. it makes me so so so SO sad to think about her moving 9 hours away to st. louis. at the same time i'm so happy for her that she's found someone she really loves. i hope it all works out for her because she deserves it. it was also nice to be able to discuss her moving out in the open, because for the past few weeks it's been the big secret about how she's leaving and we had to be really hush-hush when we talked about it.
my last blood draw with her was from tippy thompkins. i love that dog...but not that it was my last blood draw with dawn =[ oh well, life goes on. it's not like i really saw dawn that much anyways, except christmas/summertime. we'll still stay friends and text and hopefully i'll see her every once in a while. and that's all that matters. plus, on saturday i'm hanging out with her and spending the night over there for the last time, most likely, so i have that to look forward to.
i am exhausted. i have no real plans for the next few days, and it seems like everyone is headed back to school tomorrow. i'm hoping to just spend the time relaxing and chilling, because i probably won't get to do that for a while once this semester gets going. hopefully i'll make more progress on my cross-stitching project too, since i haven't even touched that in about a week. working every day is exhausting.
i really really hope i get to go back to greenfield over the summer. while it won't be the same without dawn (and by "not the same" i mean WAY less fun...), i still love working there. i'm really really hoping there are some hours for me. but i have no idea what's going on, what with dawn quitting and sarah potentially getting pregnant...
anyhow, i'm going to go to sleep. i'm exhausted and depressed and just don't want to think about anything anymore. i know that the initial feeling of sadness about dawn leaving will go away, and it'll be like nothing's changed. once i'm back at school, i won't even notice. this summer will suck, but maybe i'll be out of town doing an internship this summer anyways. and hey, who knows, maybe i'll make a trip out to st. louis. i guess we'll see.
goodnight world.
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| happy 2010 |
[Saturday, January 2nd, 2010
@ 12:36pm] |
this new year has been considerably less-eventful than the past few, which kind of sucks. but whatever, i'm over all of the drama. i'm leaving that in 2009. in the last week or two of 2009 i found out who my real friends were and who actually had a backbone and was willing to use it to stick up for me. i've decided that i'm done being friends with people who aren't willing to do that. i think that's a good new year's resolution for me, because i have a few people in my life who i need to weed out. sure i might like having them there, but it's not healthy...they're fairweather friends.
i'm excited for this year...it has the potential to be a great one. ending undergrad, starting vet school, moving into a house in lansing with my dog...very exciting stuff. we'll have to see how it goes though because all of this is conditional on my acceptance to the CVM, which is not guaranteed.
other new year's resolutions? to start being healthier. eating better will be easier now that i have a bridge card which will provide me with access to healthier foods. my apartment complex has a gym that i have free access to...i'm going to start using it. i have a class at 9:10 every morning, and then i have like a 4 or 5 hour gap...i'm going to use that to work out. maybe not every day but at least some days, at first. i also am going to go to class. every day. and i'm going to go to bed earlier, so i don't oversleep for class. it should be easier because i don't have any 8AM's, and also, pretty much all of my classes take attendance. so i have to go to them. that's the same way it was last year...first semester i skipped the classes which didn't take attendance, a lot. second semester all my classes had attendance, so i couldn't skip. my goal is to get at least a 3.8 for this semester. i think it's doable. micro & physics labs should be easy 4.0's. IAH should be an easy 4.0...biochem is doable if i put the time into it. eukaryotic i'm determined to do well in, if only because other people have told me it's impossible and i want to prove them wrong.
hmmmm what else...i think those are pretty lofty goals. but i'm up to the challenge. i'm determined to make 2010 bigger and badder than 2009.
i changed a LOT in 2009...what did i do for the first time?
-get a legit apartment on my own, and became responsible for all the bills, etc that come along with it.
-got my first, legit pet of my own that i am completely responsible for and pay for entirely on my own
-consume enough alcohol to actually feel a buzz/legally intoxicate me
-go to a 5 day hippie camping music festival, where i actually enjoyed myself.
-learn to stop judging people. just because someone's lifestyle is different than your own, doesn't mean that it's wrong or necessarily unhealthy, nor is it any of your business
-learn to stick up for myself when i feel like i'm being walked all over
-i was able to manage working 20 hours/week at two different jobs while still taking a full courseload of 15 credits and acing my classes
-conversely, over the summer i failed my first class ever
-i bought my first sex toy and LOVE IT.
i'm sure there's more, but that's all i can think of right now. over this past year i've become a completely different person...more mature, less sheltered, and more open to new ideas and lifestyles. i really like the person i've become and here's to hoping 2010 brings more of the same =]
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| 2009, in summary |
[Thursday, December 31st, 2009
@ 3:23pm] |
first sentence of the first entry from every month:
January - 2009 started out with me getting 3 hours of sleep, almost oversleeping for work, coming home and finding out that my dog had explosive diarrhea all over everything in my house.
February - i am officially 19, and legal to gamble and drink alcohol in canada. as i drove home from kim's today, i think it actually hit me. it's a very strange, but liberating feeling to know that i can finally do whatever i want [at least somewhere in the world] in terms of alcohol, and i really have no other age which will give me anymore 'privileges' [other than the obvious 21, but canada's not very far away, so if i wanted to legally get wasted, it wouldn't be hard to do].
March - i feel like there is so much going on in my life, but i never have time/energy to lj about it anymore =[
April - last week MSU won the game and now they're playing in the final four at ford field tomorrow. while i don't have tickets, it's really nice knowing that we made it to the final four, in pretty much our hometown :)
May - this week i concentrated mostly/entirely on studying. i had a paper due, a physics lab practical, and two other exams. needless to say, it was hell. however...it went well.
June - i feel so overwhelmed by my organic chemistry class right now. we cover at least 2-3 chapters/day in class, which goes for FOUR HOURS. i'm sorry, but my attention span maxes out at 2 or 2.5...i just cannot pay attention to ORGANIC CHEMISTRY for four hours at a time =[
July - orgo final in 4 hours. if i can get a 60%, that's a 2.5 for the class. i would be satisfied. 3.0 would be amazing....but at this point i really really just hope i pass.
August - think i did very decently on my genetics exam. i'm guessing low-mid 80's, at least. so that's happy :) although the more i think about what was on the exam, the more i doubt myself. meh. i shall find out on monday, i suppose.
September - lots has happened in the week or so since i've updated you...i would have updated sooner buttt we just got cable & internet in the apartment today. so that's happy.
October - i wasn't going to post this, because i'm super self conscious about my writing and didn't think it was very good. but everyone else thinks its super good so idk...here it is lol. it's already been submitted and since the application deadline is tomorrow, i figure nobody will steal it or anything so it's safe to post. here goes =]
November - soooo, it's officially misty's birthday. seeing as how it's midnight and all.
she's 7 today. today is the first birthday i will not be home to see her. it makes me very, very upset.
December - orgo II exam today...was up basically all night studying with alyssa last night. i got a 62...the highest i've gotten on any exam this semester in that class, but still not as good as i was hoping for. i'm basically resigned to the fact that i'm going to have a 2.5 in that class...sigh.
new year's eve tonight...not really that excited. probably going to just be me and kim. fuckin fantastic.
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[Tuesday, December 29th, 2009
@ 12:04am] |
blahhhhh.
today was no good.
discovered i have a lot less friends than i thought. cool.
however, i love the ones i have.
also, probably ruined a few friendships that didn't need to be ruined. whatever. i meant everything i said tonight. if that means we're no longer friends anymore, i honestly don't care. the number of people/friendships i still value from high school can be counted on one hand.
p.s.
if you're going to have an event where you invite 99% of your group of friends, just go ahead and invite that last 1% too. really, it would save you a lot of drama and cost you little to nothing.
thank god for the fact that i get to see my work girls all day tomorrow & wednesday, or else i think i would go insane.
i just want to go back to MSU where i have people around me that i actually value and want to keep in my life.
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